BOOK REVIEW : Openly Straight by Bill Konisberg


GOODREADS: Rafe is a normal teenager from Boulder, Colorado. He plays soccer. He’s won skiing prizes. He likes to write.

And, oh yeah, he’s gay. He’s been out since 8th grade, and he isn’t teased, and he goes to other high schools and talks about tolerance and stuff. And while that’s important, all Rafe really wants is to just be a regular guy. Not that GAY guy. To have it be a part of who he is, but not the headline, every single time.

So when he transfers to an all-boys’ boarding school in New England, he decides to keep his sexuality a secret — not so much going back in the closet as starting over with a clean slate. But then he sees a classmate break down. He meets a teacher who challenges him to write his story. And most of all, he falls in love with Ben . . . who doesn’t even know that love is possible.

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WHO DOESN’T WANT TO BELONG?

And please don’t be a hypocrite and tell me – I do. “It doesn’t matter to me if I’m popular or not”. Because you do – It’s our highest form of need, Belongingness. It may be not as life consuming goal for others, but you do. But in that road to belongingness, sometimes we lose ourselves, we lose sight of who we are – because what we actually want is to be ACCEPTED AS WE ARE, NO PRETENSIONS, NO JUDGMENTS – JUST YOU.

  1. I was thinking about how snakes shed their skin every year, and how awesome it would be if people did that too.
  2. Then I did a little dance, because you gotta dance when you get into the zone.
  3. I had always wondered what it would be like to be at the top of the food chain
  4. We’re all out of place in our own way.
  5. Can we know others if we don’t know ourselves?
  6. What do you think we gain by writing about ourselves?
  7. I want to be entirely label-free
  8. Wouldn’t it be nice to live in the world where no one thought that being gay was even something to ride someone about?
  9. It’s not exactly a bucket of ice cream to be different around here.
  10. Stay strong. Don’t ever let that light flicker out, because your situation, it’s not ever going to be easy, and it’s probably going to get worse before it gets better.
  11. And perhaps, the best answer is not to tolerate differences, not even to accept them. but to celebrate them. Maybe then those who are different would feel more loved, and less, well, tolerated.
  12. I got this amusement park feeling in my stomach.

 

TIMES THAT PROVED HIS PARENTS ARE THE BOMB

  1. Hey, you’re gonna be a rock star, rafe.
  2. I could show up one day as Lady Gaga dressed as Little Red Riding Hood and Mom would say, “How was your day honey?
  3. Rafe’s parents playing along his front of being straight.
  4. Upon leaving for school: “get a boyfriend”.
  5. If she would see us, she would even probably be teaching us the right to do. (in bed)
  6. Rafe’s parents throwing him a party for finally coming out of the closet.
  7. Welcoming rafe home for thanksgiving and preparing a tofu pig.

 

PHILOSOPHICAL CONVERSATIONS

  1. Mind vs Body. Since your mind is telling your body what to do, then are you your mind?
  2. Acceptance vs Tolerance
  3. Poeple often mistreat you or label it as wrong when you change – and that change was not witnessed.
  4. Agape vs Eros
  5. Nothing that comes from love could ever be wrong.

WHO HERE HAS THE HONESTLY BEN EBOOK? CAN SOMEONE PLEASE GIVE ME A COPY? THANK YOU.

BOOK REVIEW : GUARDED HEART BY K. STERLING


You know how they say that opposites attract? It may be true at times, or at first rather. but surely, time will come that those differences will set your relationship on a downward path.

Ryder is a low maintenance guy who lives off, of free furniture on the streets, who would think a hundred times before spending on a shirt, who loves kid and teaches second grade students, who would let a kid drool on his shirt, who is a vegan, who has several tattoos, who loves excitement and spur of the moment decisions but is a good guy and someone who will find the goodness in everybody.

Clint spends a couple of hundred dollars for a shirt, who has a bathroom as big as ryder’s whole house, who loves routine (eats in the same restaurant every Saturday at the same time at the same table), someone who is obsessed with neatness, someone who has different scissors for poultry, meat and fish other than for paper and religiously uses them only for that purpose, who loves drinking and partying, who gets excited with the loud music and who goes to club and DJ-ing for a living.

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I have not read a book that has more sex scenes than this one. And I’ve not read a homosexual sex this detailed. Did that catch your attention? Haha. But yes, it’s all true.

Though, I love how rough and raw their sex can be. I love how they have this I-can’t-get-my-hands-off-you kind of love. Mutual affection is there but when lust is important too. And they both have enough to last a lifetime for each other.

  1. Why did there have to be so much heat and overwhelming longing to touch clint?
  2. I love quiet dinners and snuggling on the couch when it’s raining. But I love fucking and there’s a time and place for everything.
  3. He was the human equivalent of a cozy balnket and a cup of tea.
  4. He wanted so badly to go back and freeze time so he could just stare at him and breathe the same air. He looked so good. It was like coming home.
  5. I want to know that I’m not some long term fuck buddy and you’re not going to move on when you find someone more your type.
  6. I’m so in love with you and I need to know this is never going to stop.
  7. I love you and the only thing I want is to spend the rest of my life making you happy.

So what was actually the problem in this story? Basically, Ryder does not, in any way fit into Clint’s world. Two, Clint has this very strict policy that they cannot be seen in public PDA-ing because to him, it would ruin his image. Three, Clint’s notion that it’s okay for other guys to touch, hug and kiss him as long as they’re inside the club and because they’re not bringing him home. His notion of what happens in the club stays in the club. Third, they both never really told each other the dreaded three words, ‘I love you’.

“You are generous, gentle, brilliant, patient, completely selfless and you make me laugh. You’re magic and when we touch, I feel like you’ve lit a fire within me. We belong together and I want the whole world to know that I’m yours and I will never let you go”. 

Oh my, any kind of proposals makes me swoon. You’re magic.

BOOK REVIEW : GRACEFULLY GRAYSON BY AMI POLONSKY


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White and Black, Light and Dark. And me, in the middle of it all Gray.

  1. How would it feel to hide an enormous, important, life threatening secret from your friends, neighbours maybe even the members of your family?
  2. Isolate vs Integrate
  3. I want to smash something into the mirror until I’m a million pieces on the ground, but I’m stuck in front of my reflection and I tell myself to breathe, to try harder. – I think it’s really hard to hate yourself and hate the person staring back at you in the mirror for pretending to be someone and you can’t do anything about it.
  4. The noise bounces like a million invisible Ping-Pong balls from the floor to the ceiling to the windows to the tops of the lunch tables and over and over again.
  5. I feel like I’ve been hit from behind by a wave of lava.
  6. It’s not easy to do something new. – It’s brave enough of him to voluntarily go to the try outs when he knows he’s going to be teased about it.
  7. My heartbeat is like a drumbeat. It surrounds me. Each gentle thud creates ripples all around me.
  8. My words hang in front of us like fog.
  9. My mother cannot exist without me, but I know what that means, I can’t exist without her. – Long hidden from the hearts of the teen ager’s raging hormones, lies this fact.
  10. But as long as I’m here in this cold, dark, evil land, I will never smile, I will never eat, I will never do anything but try to get home. – as long as I’m pretending to be a boy, I will never be happy.
  11. All I want is form him to be true to himself. – I wish every parent with a third gender child would feel the same way.
  12. My heartbeat is wild.
  13. Why would you want to set yourself up to be teased like that? Kids can be very cruel.
  14. Mom and Dad knew. They knew, and it was okay. – It means everything when your parents accept you for who you are, to feel comfortable in your skin, to have them love you. I wouldn’t care for anybody else’s approval.
  15. Everything keeps on flip-flopping back and forth, from bad to good, over and over again.
  16. The quiet hangs over us like a cloudy sky.
  17. If it’s not perfect, it’s not the end of the world. – If it’s not a happy ending, then it’s not finish. So smile. Life can be very cruel but there will always be something good waiting around the corner.
  18. Sometimes, everything needs to fall apart before it can come back altogether the way it’s supposed to. – Cliché, but I’d like to believe in this. To have something to look forward to. To have hope that things will get better and that everything has a purpose.
  19. It builds character to stand in someone else’s shoes. You know, try to see things from another perspective.
  20. Sometimes people make important decisions that are risky.
  21. My heartbeat and all the footsteps bounce like a million of bullets.
  22. I think to be brave, you have to be scared at the same time. To be brave means there’s something important you have to do and you’re scared, but you do it anyway.
  23. Take important action despite of fear.
  24. Risk taking is not free, but I can assure you, it’s worth it.

I take two tiny hairclips that I’ve been carrying around out of my pocket and arrange them neatly behind my ears. I smooth out my hair and walk out the doorway and into the hall.

 

                I think it’s mildly wild when you’re living in the closet. When you have to watch what you say, what you do, how you dress and the little things all the time. It’s tiring and happiness won’t be there as long as you’re in the hiding. I love homosexuals, they’re a lot easier to deal with. They usually carry a lot of baggage, but they’re also the kindest and happiest people to be around with.

                If you’re still in the closet, it’s okay. Let people know who you are. If they resent you, then they’re not your people. The people who truly loves you will accept you and love you no matter what.

MOVIE REVIEW: GRAY MATTERS


I snatched this copy from my sister. And I never thought it was a purple movie.

The movie is about the coming out of Gray. Sam, her brother are inseparable. They both decided they would look for a date for each other. Though she finds herself in love with the wife of her brother. Oh boy! A hole I don’t want to be in.

First of all: Lesbians, Gays and Bisexuals are so much more fun!

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Here are some of the quotes:

Carrie: This is the package ok? It’s exactly the same under the wrapping. This is the packages, no exchanges, no returns. Right? Why does our society push us to be perpetually uncomfortable with who we are. It’s so messed up! Wanna know why? Luscious Liposuction. Flawless face lifts.” That’s why. Enough is enough. We need to stop letting society and media and our religious leaders delegate who we are.

Gray:  I’m never going to be able to walk down the street, holding hands with my partner without the rest of the world giving us a look. And me never have the wedding that I once dreamed of and I may never have children. And one day when I die people will never give as much respect to my grieving lover as if she were my husband.It’s so much easier to be someone else.

Aside from all of this, everyone expects Gray to you know, find her true love and live happily ever after. But she didn’t. And that’s what I love about the movie. What made her essentially and genuinely happy was the fact that she is now comfortable in her own skin and happy about who and what she is.

THOUGHTS: LGBT Pride


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So I came across what Bill Clinton said: 

All of America loses when any person is denied or forced out of a job because of sexual orientation.Being gay, the last time I thought about it, seemed to have nothing to do with reading a book, fix a broken bone or change a plug.

A person’s sexual preference has nothing to do with one’s attitudes, values, skills and abilities. Why deny them the mere happiness of being with someone just because they have the same sex? I don’t really see anything wrong with that. 

I studied in an All Girl’s School and have so much experience in this area. I have a lot of friends who are lesbians or bisexuals – and some of them really has the biggest heart and the fattest brains. 

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I was really a fan of these two back in Highschool. They were the ”cool” ones but were not afraid to be all cute together. 

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I practically spent most of my breaks with them in College and they were the happiest – go lucky persons you can always drag to anywhere. 

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One of my closest friends in HS. The partner of my bestfriend. 

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Everyone was pretty much bisexual in their teen years. and these are just some of them. And I wouldn’t exchange my LGBT Friends since HS. 🙂 But for you to relate more, a list of some of the famous Gay people: 

1. Drew Barrymore

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And she says, she’s had numerous affairs with women and will continue to do so. “Do I like women sexually? Yes, I do. Totally,” Jane Pratt, the former editor of Jane magazine says she and Drew Barrymore had sex.

I think a woman and a woman coming together are beautiful just as a man and a woman together are beautiful. – well said, Drew. 

2. Ellen Degeneres and 3. Portia de Rossi

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Need I say more? Ellen and Portia got married last 2008. 

4. Nelly Furtado

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Asked if she is ever attracted to women, the “Promiscuous” singer replied: “Absolutely. Women are beautiful and sexy.

5. Laurel Holloman

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I just feel like when you fall in love you can’t help who you fall in love with. You love who you love; it just is what it is.

– This is exactly how I think. You never choose who you fall in love with. It’s not like, Oh He’s a guy, I should fall in love with him. It’s not. You fall for a person, no matter what gender he/she is because of who she/he is.